Victoria’s Secret model Bridget Malcolm announced she has stopped dieting and obsessing over her weight in order to “make peace” with her body.
The 26-year-old Australian model wrote in her blog that she made a promise to herself in August to “make peace with her body.” She threw out all of her clothes from when she was her smallest size, deleted all of her gym selfies from her social media accounts and erased her “progress” photos from her cell phone. She said she was “attempting to undo twelve years of being told to lose weight and ‘tone up.’”
“I just wanted to stop looking in mirrors and telling myself that I was ‘too fat,’ and ‘not doing enough.’ Easy to say, insanely hard to do,” Malcolm wrote.
She said she started eating healthier instead and worked out at the gym to feel stronger. However, the model said it was hard to do at first.
“I cannot tell you how many times I went to bed with my head whirling — trying to get me to latch onto how much I ate at dinner, or during the day, or trying to convince myself to change my diet, start training hard again, start tracking my size, just start doing more,” Malcolm said. “It felt like two steps forward, one and three quarters step back.”
She took advice from a friend after she felt that she was not following her goal of eating healthy versus dieting.
“He looked at me, and said, ‘You realize that everything you say, you become? In life we have the ego path, the easy, shady path, and the right, harder, harsher way.’ It stopped me in my tracks. It makes sense, and I had heard it said before [and believed it cognitively], but at that point in time I was finally completely ready to hear it.”
Malcolm said from that point she stopped talking about body issues with her friends and avoided looking in the mirror. She wrote she started ordering what she wanted and knew to stop eating when she was full.
Following her new lifestyle, Malcolm said she has gained weight in the process but she does not “give a f--- about it.”
“And every day when that voice in my head tries to tell me I am worthless, it gets a little easier to shut it down. I am setting myself free slowly,” she concluded.