After months of ugly news, it seems that the Duggar siblings' true feelings about their brother Josh are finally coming out.

In a new clip from TLC's special Jill & Jessa: Counting On, John-David and Joseph Duggar speak out about their older brother's molestation and adultery scandals.

"After everything started to settle down from the first release of stuff in the news about Josh, we got word of a second thing that we had no clue about," said John-David, 25, of the news that Josh used cheating website Ashley Madison to have an affair.

Duggar siblings get emotional over how Josh's "secret life" hurt them

"I don't think there's any way any of us would have known that my brother was living such a secret life," added Joseph, 20. "It broke my heart."

Both brothers confess that they have lost respect for the oldest Duggar kid, and no longer look up to him. "It's a big weight upon me now," says John-David, the next oldest son in the family. "I know that 'Hey, I've got a whole bunch of younger siblings looking up to me and I've got to be an example to them'...one of the toughest things I ever had to tell my older brother was 'I don't want to be like you anymore.'"

Jill & Jessa: Counting On premieres Sunday at 8/7c on TLC.