The release of a tape last year of Alec Baldwin calling his then 11-year-old daughter a "rude, thoughtless little pig" caused the actor to have suicidal thoughts, he says in his new book "A Promise to Ourselves," according to the New York Daily News.
"Driving up the Taconic Parkway, heading to an inn in the Berkshire Mountains, I began to think about what little town I would repair to in order to commit suicide. What semi-remote Massachusetts state park could I hike deep into and overdose there? When I returned to New York, the thought of jumping out the window of my apartment was with me every night for weeks," he writes.
Thinking of his daughter, Ireland, the only child from his marriage to actress Kim Basinger, the "30 Rock" star changed his mind. "I love my daughter with all my heart," he writes.
A voicemail tape of Baldwin berating his daughter for missing a scheduled phone call from him was obtained by celebrity Web site TMZ.com and broadcast worldwide.
Baldwin says in his book that he had been trying to reach his daughter, but "she was off for spring break with her mother and her phone was turned off for 10 consecutive days ... This had gone on for years now and ... when the beep came, I snapped."
At the time, Baldwin and Basinger had been fighting in court over their daughter for six years.
Baldwin apologized for the remarks and blamed Basinger for leaking the tape, which she denied.