Princess Diana said she had disturbing dreams following the death of a bodyguard with whom she had fallen in love, according to videotapes to be broadcast Monday by NBC.

In its second installment of the video archive made by Diana's voice coach, Peter Settelen (search), "Dateline NBC" was to broadcast images of the princess confessing that she had fallen "deeply in love with somebody who worked in this environment."

The man has been identified as Barry Mannakee, a policeman assigned to protect her. After being transferred to other duties, he died in a motorcycle accident in 1987.

"I was always wandering around trying to see him. Um, I just, you know, wore my heart on my sleeve. I was only happy when he was around," she told Settelen, according to a transcript released by NBC in New York.

She claimed that she had even thought about running away, but was torn.

"I was quite happy to give all this up. Well not all this, at this moment, at the time, it was quite something to have all this," the video shows her saying. "Just to go off and live with him. Can you believe it?"

After Mannakee was killed, "I used to have really disturbing dreams about him. And he was very unhappy wherever he's gone to. And so I went and laid some — I went and found out where he was buried. I went to put some, um, flowers on his grave."

Diana said she was upset to find that there was no grave, but that his ashes had been scattered.

"He was just chucked over the ground. That absolutely appalled me, but there we are, I wasn't in a position to do anything about it," she said. She laid the flowers in the cemetery anyway.

"And the day I did that ... the dreams stopped. It's strange wasn't it? It's like a sort of recognition," she said.

Reflecting on the relationship, the princess added: "I should never have played with fire and I did. And I got very burned."

Reports that Diana had an affair with Mannakee surfaced in Britain in 1998, a year after she died in a car crash in Paris.