Friends: DJ AM's Death a One-Time Relapse, Suffered 'Same Fate as Michael Jackson' |Jerry O’connell Refused To Watch Rebecca Romijn Give Birth | Jon Gosselin Brings Another Female To Vegas Pool Party | Pop Tarts Scene & Herd
Although autopsy results following DJ AM aka Adam Goldstein's sudden death on Friday came back inconclusive, he was found in his NYC apartment surrounded by drug paraphernalia — leading his close friends to believe that he lost his life in a one-off relapse that he fought so hard for so long to overcome.
"It was a one time relapse that was a mistake," a close pal told Tarts. "I hate that people are going to remember him for this and for not only revolutionizing DJing and his amazing spirit. I just spoke to him a few days ago and he was so excited to have thrown the first pitch at the METS game last weekend. He was such a special person."
The idea that Goldstein (who had been alcohol-free for 11 years and drug-free for 4 years) would turn back to substances during a hard time (his 22-year-old girlfriend Hayley Wood had just ended the relationship and he was suffering) came as a great shock even to chemical addiction specialist Marty Brenner who was not only a very good friend of Goldstein's but his mentor through his many years of sobriety. According to Brenner, the famous DJ was 100 percent committed to staying clean and during their last interaction just a week ago he seemed like he was very much in control.
"Adam gave me a big hug and a kiss, he didn't look like he was struggling but this is a crazy disease. It's about looking good, alot of people have to look good in the entertainment business. It's about ... having a smile on your face, and telling everyone you're okay, but if you're not being real and honest, this is how you end up," Brown told Tarts. "And that's why I'm sitting here and I can't understand this. I have no idea what happened. He was in perfect condition and perfect health, everything. The thing about this disease that's terrible is it can get you into a state of depression in 2 seconds where the only thing in that one moment, is where you feel the world is going to end, you feel like you're a piece of crap, and you don't even want to live."
In the same eerie vein as Michael Jackson (whose drug problem was sparked after being burned in a 1984 Pepsi commercial), AM apparently never recovered from last year's plane crash in which he was severely burned and deeply traumatized. Over the last couple of months, friends noticed he had become distant.
"He wasn't at AA meetings as regularly as he used to be," said our source. "He used to be there at least 2 or 3 times a week, but lately something wasn't quite right."
Goldstein's tragic passing has certainly rocked the entertainment world — his fellow plane crash survivor Travis Barker twittered on Saturday that his "brother is gone."
"i love u and miss u, i'll never forget all the good times we had," Barker tweeted. "i'll never forget everything we've been thru and every time i play the drums i'll think of you. U were an amazing friend/DJ/human being. Rest In Peace my brother, this really f***s me up."
Similarly, AM's ex-girlfriend Mandy Moore said she still can't comprehend the tragedy.
"I am absolutely heartbroken. For those of us lucky enough to have known him, Adam radiated a contagious exuberance for life and also personified the very definition of a true friend," Moore told Tarts in a statement. "To say that he will be missed beyond words is an understatement. My heart goes out to his loved ones."
And while his former fiancé Nicole Richie hasn't taken to Twitter to express her pain, a source told Tarts she is extremely shocked and upset.
"When they were together they were very cool, very happy and upbeat. Nicole and Adam had such a close relationship for so long and even though they're not together anymore, they had a close connection," our source added. "She is hurting."
Jerry O’Connell is the proud father of twin girls Dolly Rebecca Rose and Charlie Tamara Tulip, but the “Stand By Me” star couldn’t actually stand by his wife with his eyes open during their birth last December.
“I was there for the birth but I did not look though. A friend of mine said ‘listen, I’ve looked so I’m giving you a piece of advice - I don’t think you should look’ so I didn’t actually see anything,” O’Connell told Tarts at the Much Love Animal Rescue Dinner in Hollywood on the weekend.
But when we asked if his swimsuit supermodel wife Rebecca Romijn was back to her perfect pre-pregnancy body, he did hesitate a little.
“Yes… yes I guess she is. She looks great, back into the pilates,” O’Connell said. “She’s stopped breast-feeding so it slows down a little, I don’t know the particulars. But we had a very large lunch today and we had dessert so I don’t think she’s dieting per se.”
Romijn has infact bounced back to work and is busy filming ABC’s new supernatural series “Eastwick”, prompting O’Connell to enroll in law school.
“I got the short straw for not working so I’m going to grad school part-time. I can do my homework and watch the kids at the same time,” he added. “But Rebecca misses the girls a lot when she’s at work so I bring them around and let them bother her on set.”
Jon Gosselin's current squeeze Hailey Glassman was nowhere to be seen, but the "Jon and Kate Plus 8" star was armored with another special lady in Sin City on Saturday — his mom.
Gosselin spent the afternoon partying poolside at MGM's WET REPUBLIC with mama Pamela Gosselin Castello and an entourage of his best guy friends as he hung out in an exclusive VIP bungalow. The controversial father reveled in being the center of attention as numerous bikini-clad ladies flocked to the area for their chance to share a moment with the bachelor.
Gosselin was also overheard talking about his sextuplets first day of pre-school this week, saying that they were overjoyed with their first experience on a school bus.
Kate Walsh arriving solo beside happy couple Harrison Ford and Calista Flockhart at Oceana's SeaChange Summer Party sponsored by Zaya Rum at Villa di Sogni in Laguna Beach last Saturday. Glenn Close and Morgan Freeman were the evening's honorees and the stars that sent younger hearts aflutter, were - Sam Trammell of HBO's "True Blood" and Mark-Paul Gosselaar of ABC's "NYPD Blue" fame.
Amaury Nolasco and Eva Longoria laughing at the poster of 2009 ALMA Awards hosts George Lopez and Longoria, at a news conference to announce the nominations for the show in Los Angeles on Tuesday morning.
Jessica Biel satisfying her post-workout craving by stopping in at the Larchmont CRUMBS Bakery after yoga with her girlfriend on Tuesday and picking up two taste packs and a Chocolate Coconut cupcake.
Chris Brown arriving with his attorney Mark Geragos (and a ton of LAPD officials) for his sentencing for assaulting now ex-girlfriend Rihanna, at Los Angeles County Superior Court in Downtown Los Angeles on Tuesday.
Tori Spelling donning a Lyric Culture T- Shirt while picking up Crumbs cupcakes for her family in Malibu Lumbar Yard on Tuesday.
Jessica Szohr riding her bike (with flowers in hand) while out in NYC on Wednesday while wearing the new Coca-Cola t-shirt made from recycled plastic bottles.
Julia Roberts taking time out to "get into character" while filming "Eat, Pray, Love" in Rome, Italy on Wednesday.
"DWTS" alum Melissa Rycroft, newly blonde VS Angel Miranda Kerr and E! host Giuliana Rancic celebrating the launch of Dream Angels Heavenly Enchanted fragrance for fall by helping shoppers test the scents out at the Victoria's Secret Beauty Store at The Grove in LA on Wednesday.
Jim Carrey & Jenny McCarthy celebrating their four-year anniversary in a Sky Villa inside the Fantasy Tower at the Palms Casino Resort in Las Vegas. The two looked very much in love and they played Texas Hold em till the wee hours in the morning.
Sandra Bullock "groping" Bradley's Coopers pecs at the premiere of "All About Steve" at Hollywood's Chinese Theater on Wednesday evening.
Gwen Stefani watching hubby Gavin Rossdale rock out at the Donate Life Concert Series in Los Angeles on Wednesday.
Chris Pine celebrating his 29th birthday with a large group of friends and dinner at BOA West Hollywood Wednesday night. The group sat on the patio overlooking the Sunset Strip enjoying bottles of wine and some of BOA’s staples such as the Wagu beef, Kansas City Filet Mignon and mac n’ cheese.
Brittany Snow and Jessica Stroup dancing together until the early hours of Thursday morning and chatting at a private table on the patio of Hollywood's Madame Royale.
Lauren Bush, Founder of FEED Projects and actress Ali Larter mingling with guests while sipping VeeV açaí cocktails at the Kenneth Cole AWEARNESS launch of the FEED Health Backpack on Wednesday night at LivingHomes in Santa Monica.
Lucy Liu donning a "blue nose" while visiting Peru as a UNICEF Goodwill Ambassador in the hope of raising money for poor children on Thursday.
Jenna Dewan talking about being a Texas Prom Queen while Lindsay Price discussed her love for detoxes at Stolichnaya Vodka's fantastical performance of The Moskova Affair by Vau de Vire Society in the Hollywood Hills on Thursday.
Bill Maher visiting BODIES… The Exhibition inside Luxor Hotel & Casino on Friday, accompanied by an well-informed young woman who said she had a medical background. The two spent the most time in the circulatory and reproductive rooms discussing the specimens and human anatomy extensively and while they stayed discreet on the tour, they were holding hands as they left the Exhibition.
Mario Lopez and Ashanti having a great time serving meals to children at the Variety Boys & Girls Club of America in L.A. on Friday. Mario later got up and made some of the children flaunt their dance moves as he danced alongside them to "You're a jerk."
Original "Beverly Hills, 90210" heartthrob, Jason Priestley, bringing 30 of his closest friends and family to Tabu Ultra Lounge to celebrate his 40th birthday in Las Vegas on Friday night.
Katy Perry, Benji Madden (looking super chatty together) while at a VIP table at Hollywood's Teddy's with Juicy from Three Six Mafia on Friday night.
Kevin and Frankie Jonas having supper at ESPN Zone in NYC on Friday night.
Lindsay Lohan with a brunette friend inside a random cell phone/cell phone accessories store on Melrose on Saturday before quickly rushing into a black SUV.
Melissa Rivers with her boyfriend and children dining at First Food & Bar inside The Palazzo Las Vegas on Saturday night. They enjoyed Philly cheesesteak dumplings and burgers before Joan Rivers joined the group for a glass of wine.
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