Excerpts from blog-style writings on a Web page linked to George Sodini, the man identified as the assailant in shootings at a suburban Pittsburgh health club on Tuesday:
"Why do this?? To young girls? Just read below. I kept a running log that includes my thoughts and actions, after I saw this project was going to drag on."
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Nov. 5, 2008: "November 5, 2008: Planned to do this in the summer but figure to stick around to see the election outcome."
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Dec. 22, 2008: "Time is moving along. Planned to have this done already. I will just keep a running log here as time passes. Many of the young girls here look so beautiful as to not be human, very edible. After joining this gym, started lifting weights and like it."
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Dec. 29, 2008: "Just got back from tanning, been doing this for a while. No gym today, my elbow is sore again. I actually look good. I dress good, am clean-shaven, bathe, touch of cologne — yet 30 million women rejected me — over an 18 or 25-year period. That is how I see it. ... A man needs a woman for confidence. ... This type of life I see is a closed world with me specifically and totally excluded."
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Dec. 31, 2008: "My anger and rage is largely gone since I began lifting weights. Lifting drains me but I still have energy."
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Jan. 5, 2009: "Was at the gym to lift. Very crowded. Tomorrow should be good. There is a woman there that gives me a certain look every time I am there. I decided to walk over and make a comment about the crowds but she left when I finished the exercise. Better that I do not get sidetracked from tomorrow's plan anyways. Life is just playing games. ... Every evening I am alone, and then go to bed alone."
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May 4, 2009: "What is it like to be dead? I always think I am forgetting something, that's one reason I postponed. Similar to when you leave to get in your car to go somewhere — you hesitate with a thought: "what am I forgetting?"
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May 18, 2009: "I actually had a date today. It was with a woman I met on the bus in March. We got together at Two PPG Place for lunch. The last date for me was May 1, 2008. Women just don't like me. There are 30 million desirable women in the US (my estimate) and I cannot find one."
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May 29, 2009: "Another lonely Friday night, I'm done. This is too much."
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Aug. 3, 2009: "I took off today, Monday, and tomorrow to practice my routine and make sure it is well polished. I need to work out every detail, there is only one shot. Also I need to be completely immersed into something before I can be successful. I haven't had a drink since Friday at about 2:30. Total effort needed. Tomorrow is the big day."
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